It’s been a while since I’ve written. Things have been so hectic over the last few months that I haven’t had time to stop & really write anything. Not only that I lost motivation & inspiration; & the site froze so I had lost my outlet. However, we are back & hopefully firing on all cylinders. Life has taken all sorts of crazy turns but they have all been life lessons that I am learning from. I feel like I have grown so much as a person over the last few months & finally I feel happy in myself. I’m taking each day as it comes but not forgetting my plans & goals.
The bathroom is finally completed & I’m so happy with it. It feels like such a calm & tranquil space yet vibrant & awakening. The next to be tackled is the loft so that when I come to do the 2 large bedrooms I don’t have kapok insulation to deal with & I can get some order up there.
Well that was all written on 4th August, it is now 5th September – how times flies when you’re having fun! 😀
I have not done anything more to the house other than keep it clean & tidy. Instead I have been spending a lot of my days off with friends & finally feel like I have got my social life back on track. I’m enjoying summer, or at least the slightly warmer weather, while it’s here & then I will get back on with the house during winter. I’m struggling to keep on top of the house & garden but I’m ok with that, I’ll get there. For the time being I am enjoying life for what it is & happy taking each day as it comes. Things are looking much brighter now & it’s exciting!
I started counselling about 2 1/2 months ago. It’s so so. Well no, it’s actually frickin tough going but I am growing as a person so I am embracing it as a positive thing. I both dread & look forward to Wednesdays, it’s a roller coaster but one I’m ok with. The one thing I’m really struggling with is communicating with Mom & Dad. I know I need to but I cannot shake myself from doing this on my own. I’m also scared to really go back to where I was at Christmas – I’m having so much fun at the moment! I will not shy away from it though. I was well aware I would face obstacles, distractions & deception; it is just about recognising them & actively doing something about them. I am also well aware it is not a race so I refuse to beat myself up over how slow I may feel my progress is going. However, I also refuse to give up. We all need to take a break & reevaluate & take stock of where we are, & where we want to be – & where we are going.
Another thing I have done is joined a tarot group. The cards & my crystals are my spiritual guides together with the stars, & their assistance over the last few months have been irreplaceable. My spirituality has grown back to what it was some 13+ years ago. I no longer feel lost or unsure & it is liberating. My knowledge continues to expand & my mind continues to embrace everything that is earthly & spiritual. As my tarot year cards for this year showed me; I would be embracing life & all it’s wondrous magic to it’s fullest – The World & The Empress. I shall write a separate piece on those in more detail, but it’s safe to say I am experiencing them in their entirety & I feel on top of the world!